invictus_heart

i was trying to find some superhero stuffs for our GA. hhmm helping AJ to have a character to portray. and well yeah, while browsing on youtube, i accidentally clicked on a link that shows the video of Nickelback with their song FAR AWAY. haayyy the song is really heartbreaking. its old but its one of those songs that i never grew tired of listening to.

here it is:

FAR AWAY by Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
I love you
I’ve loved you all along
I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of Hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything, but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’d never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

So far away
So far away
far away for far too long
So far away
So far away
far away for far too long

But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
I love you
I loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me,and never let me go
Keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
Believe it
hold on to me never let me go

Keep breathing
hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing
hold on to me, never let me go

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yesterday while checking my friendster account, something came across my mind - what if i check on *tttoooooott*’s account and see if he posted my comment  "nakakamiss…"

i am not really hoping. its been more than a year since we last talked. but hey, its all surprising to find out that HE POSTED IT!

hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba ako o malulungkot

maybe because it would have been eaiser for me if he didnt. its easy to tell myself "break it off… he’s gone"

but now… i am AGAIN confused

after what happened

WHY?

pwede naman nya i-delete… bakit kaya?

they say girls are annoying because WE thend to hope for something that’s far gone

to be honest… i dont want to hope

and i am praying that i will never see him again

i cant allow myself to get hurt

again

and again

and again

not having him back doesnt mean not loving him anymore

yun nga yung mahirap sa loyal

i cant find reasons to like others

its been 2 year… did my feeling ever changed….

eerrnngggkkk!

NOPE… IT DIDNT

call me insane or martyr or whatever

but i cant and i opted not to change the way i feel for him

*ooppsss teka lang baka may confused dyan… kung si ANO ang iniisip mo… mali ka…*

si ANO… hhmm i would like to think na hindi na alng tlga nag-exist kung ano yung nangyari. we’re young. immature. kung nasaktan sya… mas lalo ako.

hindi MO lang alam…

hindi NYO lang alam kung ano ang naranasan ko

and though i have already forgiven

i will never ever forget what happened

hindi ako bitter dahil i still like him

its just that i dont think i deserve the way YOU (collective) treated me

back to *tttoooottt*

i regret that i took you forgranted

and now i am suffering

terribly missing you

and though its really painful

can i ask a favor from you…

can we be friends…