Deranged
When does something ends?
How does one know when to stop?
That’s the entire problem, even if you want… you just find yourself coming back for more.
If people do it… why cant you? Why cant i?
Whats fearful is the thought of losing that something when u let it go
But when will I learn
i got off the track
made myself miserable until it reaches to the point that it cannot stand anymore
where was I wrong?
I was trying… but it’s all useless
It wont let me sleep and stays on my mind the whole day
And now I am desperate to find the answer
I want to go back to where I was
Run like hell to have the old me again
I hate whats happening to me now
And I am starting to hate what I have become
This post seem not to make any sense
But right now I am trying to realize and put myself back to the game
It feels like I was beaten 20 times
And I am so disappointed to myself
Why did I let this happen to me
Why is it have to be me?
Its been a part of me and now I have to leave it
I have to…
I need to…
Please…
Just let me go….
