invictus_heart

Alam nyo friends tawang tawa na ko sa mga kaganapan ha

Haha

Pero

gaya

ng sabi ni Kuya July

sana

wag na nating PATULAN ang sabaw… este ang mga posts na hindi naman dapat pinag-aaksayahan ng panahon

Isipin nyo na lang, wala na tayong ginagawa pero ganun tlga… may mga taong sadyang ipinanganak na parang pinaglihi sa sama ng loob at yung galit nya sa mundo sa atin binubunton

Just think of these:

WE know where we stand

WE can handle confrontations (can that person do the same?)

WE have achieved so much na para simpleng jacket at tshirts lang ginagawa pang issue

Sino bang matinong tao ang out of the blue bigla na lang maglalabas ng angst over tshirts and jackets na tayo naman ang gumawa…

4bes2… we have been through a lot of things

Sabi nga ni

helena

, it was very pathetic

At siguro tlgang nakakahurt na wala naman tayong sinasabi tapos may biglang ilalabas na ganun

Pero ano naman ang gagawin natin?

Dapat maging thankful na lang tayo

Kasi at least tayo kaya natin maghandle ng confrontations, taasan ng boses, sigawan at arguments

At hindi tayo nagsesettle lang sa pagpopost sa blogs

KADUWAGAN yung talak ng talak sa blog pero pag confrontations naman iyak ng iyak

Cant you see? That person cant even get close to us…

Sa blog lang siya magaling magmatapang

Thanks sa lahat ng nagcomment about dun kasi you defended our class… eto na naman tayo na naman ang magmumukhang masama.

We’ll stick together guys… (kasi may jackets tayo??? at EXTERNAL ang UNITY NATIN??? aahmmm what the hell is external unity?)

NOTE: To that person…. I wish you can say all the hell you’re talking about in front of us… ang hirap sayo magaling ka lang magsalita. Kapag hinarap ka sa personal, iiyakan mo kami. Parang kami pa lumalabas na may kasalanan. If youre intentions are clean (tulad ng

CLAIM

MO

), face us. We’ll all talk IN PERSON. Hindi sa blog… ikaw din kasi kawawa. Napagtatawanan ka lang siryoso. Hindi pa naman kami marunong umatras…

I must admit…

The past 2 weeks are like the pits of hell for me

I cant eat

I am starting to get sick

I am lost in school

Sometimes I blankly stare at nothingness for minutes

For a time, I felt like I don’t have the spirit to go to school

I have lost the drive to be better

It was hell

Yes… it was very much like hell

Just when I am about to graduate

One time tinawag ako ni sir bong at nung nakita nyang mababa ang grade ko sa first recitation (very far from my written ones) he started to frown and gave me a look… “BAKIT?..”

That’s when I started to realize, hell is over for me. its time to move up where I am suppose to be.

Para

akong sinampal para magising…

To my 4bes2 family

I have known you for years guys. I was like the “mama” for you. My love for you guys just ran naturally. no pretence. No thinking twice. I love you genuinely for the reason that I myself can never explain. Somehow I felt incharge to be there and be the strength for anyone. Give advise if ever needed. Stay up till late just to hear your problems out and make sure I don’t cry when you cry (even if I am dying to cry too… hehe)

I wanted to be strong.

Or so I thought

Maraming salamat

Yes, the past weeks are like hell for my heart. But those were the best days of my life.

Just when I wanted to be alone and silent

You guys were there – making sure I have all the love I need

And finally… I found my peace

You allowed me to be weak for a moment so I can fix myself

Thank you for being the type of friends

WHO HEAR ME OUT AND NEVER ASK…

Especially to those people I never deemed to be close to me

Thank you for spending some time to care for me

And as I always say

Since childhood, nothing came to me easily. Lahat kailangan ko paghirapan, except kayo.

I have experienced hell

But I have found my heaven in you guys

And that makes me find myself back

Sobrang salamat sa lahat

I am ok now…

As in salamat tlaga

Hindi ko na alam ano pang sasabihin ko

Sorry i got lost for a moment.

But I am back

And i will be here for you everyone

She is back… J thanks for making me better J

To the reason why I am happy when it rains:

If we are reincarnated…you will be me… and I will be you… I love you more and more and more… thanks sa emy moments… very perfect kayo haha. i appreciate the drama that turned into comedy. and thank you dahil naasar ka. haha. naramdaman ko kasing naasar din ako sa sarili ko nun haha

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And to the one who turned my life 360 degrees and back:

I love you…very much…

And yes, I am letting go so I can make myself happy… J

dont worry youre not gona hear these words coming

Thanks for being an inspiration for a very loooooonnggg time

Bye…

To my "iron friends":

redge. dhar. chuckie. jen. aj. helena. tine. ian. stella. mark chester dela rosa. my super dom. kuya july. mama joyce. ikong. bab. meg. nas. belle.

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paano na lang ako kung wala kayo??

i want to forget you

i want to stay away

but everytime i try, why does it seems like fate is finding ways to let me hold on to you?

i was able to hold back for years…

konti na lang…

parang hindi ko na ata kaya

and out of all the pride i had during the past

i guess this will be the time when i will have to tell what i really feel

suko na ako

and i am going to admit

mahal talaga kita… sobra…

pero hindi ko mwedeng sabihin

kasi alam kong maraming nagmamahal sayo

kaya hindi naman magiging kawalan

kasi ayokong makasakit ng iba

bsta

haaayyy basta

kaya ko pa naman

at hanggang kaya ko

iiwasan kita

at sana… iwasan mo na rin lang ako

para matapos na…

para wala na…

must i let go and just let her love you???

…but i love you so much