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I must admit…

The past 2 weeks are like the pits of hell for me

I cant eat

I am starting to get sick

I am lost in school

Sometimes I blankly stare at nothingness for minutes

For a time, I felt like I don’t have the spirit to go to school

I have lost the drive to be better

It was hell

Yes… it was very much like hell

Just when I am about to graduate

One time tinawag ako ni sir bong at nung nakita nyang mababa ang grade ko sa first recitation (very far from my written ones) he started to frown and gave me a look… “BAKIT?..”

That’s when I started to realize, hell is over for me. its time to move up where I am suppose to be.

Para

akong sinampal para magising…

To my 4bes2 family

I have known you for years guys. I was like the “mama” for you. My love for you guys just ran naturally. no pretence. No thinking twice. I love you genuinely for the reason that I myself can never explain. Somehow I felt incharge to be there and be the strength for anyone. Give advise if ever needed. Stay up till late just to hear your problems out and make sure I don’t cry when you cry (even if I am dying to cry too… hehe)

I wanted to be strong.

Or so I thought

Maraming salamat

Yes, the past weeks are like hell for my heart. But those were the best days of my life.

Just when I wanted to be alone and silent

You guys were there – making sure I have all the love I need

And finally… I found my peace

You allowed me to be weak for a moment so I can fix myself

Thank you for being the type of friends

WHO HEAR ME OUT AND NEVER ASK…

Especially to those people I never deemed to be close to me

Thank you for spending some time to care for me

And as I always say

Since childhood, nothing came to me easily. Lahat kailangan ko paghirapan, except kayo.

I have experienced hell

But I have found my heaven in you guys

And that makes me find myself back

Sobrang salamat sa lahat

I am ok now…

As in salamat tlaga

Hindi ko na alam ano pang sasabihin ko

Sorry i got lost for a moment.

But I am back

And i will be here for you everyone

She is back… J thanks for making me better J

To the reason why I am happy when it rains:

If we are reincarnated…you will be me… and I will be you… I love you more and more and more… thanks sa emy moments… very perfect kayo haha. i appreciate the drama that turned into comedy. and thank you dahil naasar ka. haha. naramdaman ko kasing naasar din ako sa sarili ko nun haha

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And to the one who turned my life 360 degrees and back:

I love you…very much…

And yes, I am letting go so I can make myself happy… J

dont worry youre not gona hear these words coming

Thanks for being an inspiration for a very loooooonnggg time

Bye…

To my "iron friends":

redge. dhar. chuckie. jen. aj. helena. tine. ian. stella. mark chester dela rosa. my super dom. kuya july. mama joyce. ikong. bab. meg. nas. belle.

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